My Body In Numbers

So at my last fertility appt, my dr. told me that our next step was to see "how deep of a ditch" i'm in with my PCOS. I had to wait for my cycle to start, and then on day 3 go get blood work done. Then I would need to take daily ovulation tests until I tested positive. Once that happened (highly unlikely), I'd wait another 7 days and then go get more blood work done. So of course once day 3 started, I immediately went and got my blood drawn. Then I went to Walmart and bought a 20 pack of Clearblue Digital ovulation test. It was almost $40!!! Yuck!


Fast forward to Tuesday night, I get a call from my Dr.s office and the nurse said my blood work results were in. The blood work was to test for my LH levels, FSH levels, Thyroid, Cholesterol, and Insulin.
Here were my "lovely" results:

Good Cholesterol:  Should be at a 60. Mine is 58.
Bad Cholesterol:  Should be less than 200. Mine is 253
Triglycerides:  Should be less than 150. Mine is 195.
Thyroid:  Should be less than 2.5. Mine is 3.3.
LH levels:  Should be less than 10. Mine is 7.7
FSH levels:  I forget what it should be, but mine is 8.8 which apparently isn't good.
Insulin:  Should be less than 10. Mine is 28.


Now to break this down a little further, we'll start with my thyroid. The nurse instructed me that due to my numbers for this, I would need to go get more blood work done to confirm this. Once it comes back positive (which it will, story of my life), I will immediately go on medication and stay on it through the duration of trying to get pregnant AND my entire pregnancy, if not longer. The good news with this is that the nurse said this medication can potentially ASSIST in getting pregnant. Yay for silver linings.

With my cholesterol, clearly it's high. Problem is, they can't give me any medication for it because it will interfere with trying to get pregnant. So now I have to figure out how to lower it on my own. Yay...

As far as my insulin goes, here's where it gets fun. (Sarcasm obviously) Ok so it's no secret that I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, or PCOS. With this, comes an insulin resistance which means my body produces too much insulin (similar to diabetics I guess) and it interferes with ovulation. The nurse said that normally, if a woman's LH levels DOUBLE that of her FSH levels, it's confirmed that she has PCOS. Well, obviously my numbers don't represent that, which has her confused. BUT, clearly since my insulin is at a whopping 28 instead of less than 10, that's all the confirmation they need.

I shouldn't be surprised with all of this. Ever since our TTC journey started over 2 years ago, things have never been simple. You'd think I'd get used to running into a wall with every step, but it still gets hard to hear each time. I feel like everytime I go to fix one problem, I walk away finding I have 2 more things to fix as well. I am emotionally and mentally exhausted. Half the time I'm ready to just throw in the towel, and the other half I just pray that my miracle is around the corner. For now.....we wait......